So here I sit at work hoping that the nauseated feeling I have goes away because I am just too busy to get sick! I have finals coming up and then straight into the busy holiday week. Oh! I forgot about the homework I have been assigned over the break as well. So needless to say I don't need to get sick right now.
On to the reason of this post. I'm sitting at my desk and trying to distract myself for a few moments then back to work. So how to I distract myself? I go to a few of my favorite websites! (of course) So I went to my favorite one www.modabakeshop.com and now all I want to do is go home and sew a quilt. I've also recently been getting a bug to learn how to knit. Someday after school I will take a class.
I wish I could just take a weekend and sew and get caught up with some projects that have been put on hold. There is nothing like sticking in a movie and sewing to relax you and bring you back to center.
Hopefully in the mess of all the holidays I will get a day or two to do just this!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Long Time... I know!
Okay, so I keep meaning to update here, but I always think... no one reads this. But here I sit in the cafeteria of school looking out at the snow covering the construction going on. I miss the campus how it was. I know it will be better, but I just wish it was done.
Anyways... Update on me. I was suppose to get a letter in the mail the day before Thanksgiving to tell me if I was accepted into the nursing program I had applied to. Well the night before, I had a dream that it got lost in the mail and I had to go in and ask if I was accepted on the following Monday. Day after day I sat at the window trying to concentrate on the homework that I had watching the mailbox. I get the mail in between 4-6 PM! And to no avail the letter did in fact get lost in the mail (still haven't received it) and I had to go ask on Monday if I was accepted... And I WAS!
I got into the nursing program in the school I wanted, my #1 choice!! I was so excited to hear.
So now just to pass the current classes and keep trying to work full time, and nursing school full time. The schedule isn't the best, and I will pretty much have no social life... but it's only 2 and a half years! Then... I get to work in my dream job! I really am so excited.
I have actually been so blessed with all my friends and the things going on in my life. I'm also writing a fictional short story that seems to be getting some pretty good reviews which has been a lot of fun. I have also been able to hang out with my friends, granted not nearly as much as I would like, but it's something.
Finals are the end of this week into next week so I will be buried in my textbooks until then, but then... the Holidays! I love Christmas, and even though I spend New Year's Eve alone (by choice) I love it! I sit down watch an action movie (nothing to do with romance) and work on a puzzle. I still have the one I worked on last year which I'm so excited to hopefully finish. Some much needed alone relaxation time.
It's been a good few months!
Anyways... Update on me. I was suppose to get a letter in the mail the day before Thanksgiving to tell me if I was accepted into the nursing program I had applied to. Well the night before, I had a dream that it got lost in the mail and I had to go in and ask if I was accepted on the following Monday. Day after day I sat at the window trying to concentrate on the homework that I had watching the mailbox. I get the mail in between 4-6 PM! And to no avail the letter did in fact get lost in the mail (still haven't received it) and I had to go ask on Monday if I was accepted... And I WAS!
I got into the nursing program in the school I wanted, my #1 choice!! I was so excited to hear.
So now just to pass the current classes and keep trying to work full time, and nursing school full time. The schedule isn't the best, and I will pretty much have no social life... but it's only 2 and a half years! Then... I get to work in my dream job! I really am so excited.
I have actually been so blessed with all my friends and the things going on in my life. I'm also writing a fictional short story that seems to be getting some pretty good reviews which has been a lot of fun. I have also been able to hang out with my friends, granted not nearly as much as I would like, but it's something.
Finals are the end of this week into next week so I will be buried in my textbooks until then, but then... the Holidays! I love Christmas, and even though I spend New Year's Eve alone (by choice) I love it! I sit down watch an action movie (nothing to do with romance) and work on a puzzle. I still have the one I worked on last year which I'm so excited to hopefully finish. Some much needed alone relaxation time.
It's been a good few months!
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Funny!
Okay, so when something funny happens I automatically think, "I'm going to blog about this!" But inevitably it comes and goes, and the post just doesn't happen. However... Friday night I went to the movies and realized I HAD to post about the experience.
So my sister text me and said that they were going to the $1 movie to see Wolverine: X-men Origins and was wondering if I wanted to join them. I didn't hesitate and said I would go!
So I left work a little early and headed straight to the theatre. They had previously bought my ticket and I entered and realized that other than a couple in the back the theatre was completely empty. Which is so nice by the way.
So the movie starts and its probably 30 or so minutes into the movie, and I hear this older woman yell "I can't see a darn thing!" "Can you see anything?!" Then I turn my head and they are right at our row. They proceed to move down the seats, passing ALL the empty seats making their way to us. They then start touching my brother-in-law saying "OH is someone there?" My brother-in-law informs them that there is, and they move down, doing the same thing to my sister, then down to me. She then tries to sit on me still, until I say "Yes, I'm here, the seat isn't empty" She responds surprised "OH dear! I'm so sorry" She then decides that she doesn't want to sit on that row, and slowly makes her way down the rest of the row (that was in fact empty) all the while talking to her friend down the aisle saying that she doesn't know where to sit, and asking where she wanted to go. They finally made there way to the row in front of us on the end that they first started on.
I couldn't stop laughing! Especially when they were finally seated my brother-in-law leaned over to my sister and said "Hey its you and your sister in 60 years"
Oh, and then after watching for about 45 minutes they decided they didn't like Wolverine and got up loudly and walked out. Seriously funny!!!
So my sister text me and said that they were going to the $1 movie to see Wolverine: X-men Origins and was wondering if I wanted to join them. I didn't hesitate and said I would go!
So I left work a little early and headed straight to the theatre. They had previously bought my ticket and I entered and realized that other than a couple in the back the theatre was completely empty. Which is so nice by the way.
So the movie starts and its probably 30 or so minutes into the movie, and I hear this older woman yell "I can't see a darn thing!" "Can you see anything?!" Then I turn my head and they are right at our row. They proceed to move down the seats, passing ALL the empty seats making their way to us. They then start touching my brother-in-law saying "OH is someone there?" My brother-in-law informs them that there is, and they move down, doing the same thing to my sister, then down to me. She then tries to sit on me still, until I say "Yes, I'm here, the seat isn't empty" She responds surprised "OH dear! I'm so sorry" She then decides that she doesn't want to sit on that row, and slowly makes her way down the rest of the row (that was in fact empty) all the while talking to her friend down the aisle saying that she doesn't know where to sit, and asking where she wanted to go. They finally made there way to the row in front of us on the end that they first started on.
I couldn't stop laughing! Especially when they were finally seated my brother-in-law leaned over to my sister and said "Hey its you and your sister in 60 years"
Oh, and then after watching for about 45 minutes they decided they didn't like Wolverine and got up loudly and walked out. Seriously funny!!!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Current Top 5...
Alright, so if you haven't been reading my blog for very long I have a Top 5 list of guys, usually actors, that I currently have a crush on. It's been awhile since I updated this list on my blog, it is after all a very fluid list.
So, let's get started!
#1 Michael Vartan: I have liked this guy since Alias. I was so excited to see him return to a tv series, let alone a series about a nurse! Of course I was going to watch it. On last nights episode of HawthoRNe he reminded me why he should be on this list when he spoke French. Talk about going weak in the knees! *swoon* So far it's a great show and I hope it will be on for a long time!
#2 Robert Pattinson: Being a Twilight fan, and excited for the second installment this guy had to make the list! If you've talked to me at all you know that I am an Edward fan through and through! I think with Taylor playing Jacob its a great casting job, and I don't hate Jacob anymore, but I will always LOVE Edward, and think that Rob does a great job of portraying him. I also think that Rob actually has a personality and I enjoy reading his interviews. Also if you haven't listened to the commentary of Twilight, you should give it a listen, very funny!
#3 Hugh Jackman: Now what can you say about this actor?! He is a great actor, all accounts are that he is a great guy to talk to, very personable, a good husband and father, he is Australian, so he has a great accent... AND he can sing?!?! Now I'm not sure why he hasn't made the previous lists, but I am correcting this huge mistake right now, so please forgive me! The last movie I saw him in was Wolverine, which I thought was a great action movie. But I think I first realized how much I enjoyed his movie was "Someone Like You". A movie that he was in with Ashley Judd and Greg Kinnear. A great romantic comedy!
#4 Mark Paul Gosselaar: Zac.... Saved by the Bell. Really the reason I watched this show growing up every Saturday. I was excited to see him back on TV when he entered the cast of NYPD Blue. I thought that he breathed new life into the series, and was sad that he was cast only to have the final season follow so shortly. I am very glad that Raising the Bar is now on TNT and is one of the many TNT Drama's that I now have a season pass on my TIVO for. I look forward to it every week! If you missed him on Jimmy Fallon you HAVE to watch it! HILARIOUS! He definitely hasn't lost his touch!
#5 Matthew Perry: I first got a crush on Matthew Perry when he played Chandler Bing on friends. He was the comic relief in so many episodes with his clever quips. Then it only grew when him and Monica hooked up, because... I'm SO much like Monica (it's a little scary actually). I loved their romance and the chemistry that they had, and that he was the calm to her crazy but loved her with all her flaws, and actually more so because of them rather than in spite of them. I also thought he did a great job in 17 again, and I thought he was hilarious when he appeared on Jimmy Fallon to promote it!
So, let's get started!
#1 Michael Vartan: I have liked this guy since Alias. I was so excited to see him return to a tv series, let alone a series about a nurse! Of course I was going to watch it. On last nights episode of HawthoRNe he reminded me why he should be on this list when he spoke French. Talk about going weak in the knees! *swoon* So far it's a great show and I hope it will be on for a long time!#2 Robert Pattinson: Being a Twilight fan, and excited for the second installment this guy had to make the list! If you've talked to me at all you know that I am an Edward fan through and through! I think with Taylor playing Jacob its a great casting job, and I don't hate Jacob anymore, but I will always LOVE Edward, and think that Rob does a great job of portraying him. I also think that Rob actually has a personality and I enjoy reading his interviews. Also if you haven't listened to the commentary of Twilight, you should give it a listen, very funny! #3 Hugh Jackman: Now what can you say about this actor?! He is a great actor, all accounts are that he is a great guy to talk to, very personable, a good husband and father, he is Australian, so he has a great accent... AND he can sing?!?! Now I'm not sure why he hasn't made the previous lists, but I am correcting this huge mistake right now, so please forgive me! The last movie I saw him in was Wolverine, which I thought was a great action movie. But I think I first realized how much I enjoyed his movie was "Someone Like You". A movie that he was in with Ashley Judd and Greg Kinnear. A great romantic comedy! #4 Mark Paul Gosselaar: Zac.... Saved by the Bell. Really the reason I watched this show growing up every Saturday. I was excited to see him back on TV when he entered the cast of NYPD Blue. I thought that he breathed new life into the series, and was sad that he was cast only to have the final season follow so shortly. I am very glad that Raising the Bar is now on TNT and is one of the many TNT Drama's that I now have a season pass on my TIVO for. I look forward to it every week! If you missed him on Jimmy Fallon you HAVE to watch it! HILARIOUS! He definitely hasn't lost his touch!#5 Matthew Perry: I first got a crush on Matthew Perry when he played Chandler Bing on friends. He was the comic relief in so many episodes with his clever quips. Then it only grew when him and Monica hooked up, because... I'm SO much like Monica (it's a little scary actually). I loved their romance and the chemistry that they had, and that he was the calm to her crazy but loved her with all her flaws, and actually more so because of them rather than in spite of them. I also thought he did a great job in 17 again, and I thought he was hilarious when he appeared on Jimmy Fallon to promote it!
Monday, July 27, 2009
Not Myself...
So lately I've been plugging through day by day. I feel like I'm in a rut. Today on facebook I put my status as "wonder's if I'm as forgettable as I feel sometimes".
Lately I can't explain it. My school seems to be going in the direction I want to, I've got the summer off and so I'm taking preparations to begin in the fall. I applied to the Westminster Nursing Program, and am waiting to see if I made it in. I assist three great guys at work that I really get along with, and I feel like I'm pretty on top of my tasks (at least most days). But... I feel like I'm not myself, and like I'm lacking... something. Which is SO specific I know, and therefore so easy to fix. I feel like my social life is missing. I still have some wonderful friends that I wouldn't trade for anything. And if you saw my schedule you would probably wonder where I would think to fit in more of a social life.
It's just missing.... Okay, maybe it's dating...
I may be missing dating, and I don't know how to approach it. At all. I've tried the online thing, and let me just put it in these terms... There IS a reason I have deleted all my profiles on these dating sites. I've tried the set up, and it never works out. I'm not sure if they just see my picture and decide that they don't even want to go out, or if they are just too busy, but I never hear anything from them. I go to my ward, but truly feel that if I'm not in the room the guys forget that I exist.
I hope this doesn't sound like a pity party. It's not meant to. I'm not sad, maybe a little blue. Contemplative may be a better word. I am not stuck in my ways, other than I am scared to death to ask a guy out. And YES the worst thing that they can say is No....
I just wish that I could flip to the last page in my life book and see "and they lived happily ever after". If I could see that... I think that I could make it through this in between stuff.
Lately I can't explain it. My school seems to be going in the direction I want to, I've got the summer off and so I'm taking preparations to begin in the fall. I applied to the Westminster Nursing Program, and am waiting to see if I made it in. I assist three great guys at work that I really get along with, and I feel like I'm pretty on top of my tasks (at least most days). But... I feel like I'm not myself, and like I'm lacking... something. Which is SO specific I know, and therefore so easy to fix. I feel like my social life is missing. I still have some wonderful friends that I wouldn't trade for anything. And if you saw my schedule you would probably wonder where I would think to fit in more of a social life.
It's just missing.... Okay, maybe it's dating...
I may be missing dating, and I don't know how to approach it. At all. I've tried the online thing, and let me just put it in these terms... There IS a reason I have deleted all my profiles on these dating sites. I've tried the set up, and it never works out. I'm not sure if they just see my picture and decide that they don't even want to go out, or if they are just too busy, but I never hear anything from them. I go to my ward, but truly feel that if I'm not in the room the guys forget that I exist.
I hope this doesn't sound like a pity party. It's not meant to. I'm not sad, maybe a little blue. Contemplative may be a better word. I am not stuck in my ways, other than I am scared to death to ask a guy out. And YES the worst thing that they can say is No....
I just wish that I could flip to the last page in my life book and see "and they lived happily ever after". If I could see that... I think that I could make it through this in between stuff.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Focusing... Well Trying...
I'm not sure why, but I feel the need to blog. Judging from my last post not many read this anyways so I guess this is more of a journal and place for me to think things out.
Like I said I'm not really sure why I feel the need to blog, I guess because tonight I'm feeling the need to talk to someone. I don't know why, but I don't call people when I feel this way, I hope that someone calls me, and if that ever happens I never tell them I needed to talk to someone. I guess I just like pretending like I'm strong and have it all together when really I feel like a meshy blob inside. I don't feel like I have anything together. I don't know who I am, what my purpose is, other than I want to be a nurse. With everything I am I want to be a nurse. I'm finishing my application into a great program and should have it in next week. I don't hear until November. (So... fingers crossed...)
I'm feeling out of sorts lately, and there really isn't a reason that I can place my finger on why. I currently don't have roommates, other than my brother and his family, and I feel a little out of place, or old for my ward. I know this is partially if not all my doing. To make new friends it's a lot of work, and getting out of your shell. Right now I feel like I'm trying to push my circle peg into the square peg in front of me.
I guess one step in life at a time. Faith in every footstep. Faith in every day.
Like I said I'm not really sure why I feel the need to blog, I guess because tonight I'm feeling the need to talk to someone. I don't know why, but I don't call people when I feel this way, I hope that someone calls me, and if that ever happens I never tell them I needed to talk to someone. I guess I just like pretending like I'm strong and have it all together when really I feel like a meshy blob inside. I don't feel like I have anything together. I don't know who I am, what my purpose is, other than I want to be a nurse. With everything I am I want to be a nurse. I'm finishing my application into a great program and should have it in next week. I don't hear until November. (So... fingers crossed...)
I'm feeling out of sorts lately, and there really isn't a reason that I can place my finger on why. I currently don't have roommates, other than my brother and his family, and I feel a little out of place, or old for my ward. I know this is partially if not all my doing. To make new friends it's a lot of work, and getting out of your shell. Right now I feel like I'm trying to push my circle peg into the square peg in front of me.
I guess one step in life at a time. Faith in every footstep. Faith in every day.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Two Years Old!
Okay, so I know I haven't been updated my blog lately. Its sadly been put to the side, and I will try to fix that. Life has been a little crazy right now. But I saw this on another blog and thought it would be fun.
My blog is now two years old. So, please leave a comment, just any comment, wishing my blog a happy birthday, or even just to say Hi. Even the blog stalkers that stop by occasionally. :)
And I promise, I will update this thing with a real post soon!
Thanks!
My blog is now two years old. So, please leave a comment, just any comment, wishing my blog a happy birthday, or even just to say Hi. Even the blog stalkers that stop by occasionally. :)
And I promise, I will update this thing with a real post soon!
Thanks!
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Trip to Boise
Okay, so I've been thinking about this post since the trip, its just taken me awhile to put it down, so... here goes.
My nephew was graduating so my parents and I decided to take a road trip to see the miraculous event (if Kevin reads this, he knows I'm kidding) and as much as I persisted to take my car (VW Passat) my mom insisted on taking theirs (Ford Expedition) that had just had new brakes put on and was still creaking a bit... So they picked me up at about 9am, after I had run some errands and got some snack food. I'm not a big morning person. I can get up and moving, but usually remain quiet until I am fully awake, if I take a shower, then its right after that, if I take a shower at night, that time increases in the morning.
So as we started out I put on my headphones and tuned into my iPod. We stopped in Farmington for gas and more road trip snack foods and then were on our way. About two hours (halfway) I needed to stop at the restroom and my dad decided Rupert would be a good idea. As we exited the tires made the WORST noise I had ever heard. It sounded like the axle was dropping off the tire and hitting the frame of the car. My mom started to freak out and grab the handle on the door and she started asking my dad what it was. As he was not under the car, he was not sure, but knew it was something with the brakes. We turned into the gas station and went to the bathroom. I love my parents dearly, but with stuff like this, I know my dad will figure it out and would just as soon tune out the discussion of how between the two of them... sometimes. So when I got back I put my iPod back on and waited to hear what we would be doing. Turns out that a bolt that held the brake on had shimmied out and no longer was holding the brake on. Rupert was only 5 miles off the exit so we decided to head that direction and hope to find a car parts place. As we headed toward the street my dad put the foot on the brake and it was a horrid sound. Before I know it he is turning the car around and driving backwards. At first I thought he was just going to try it out in the parking lot... OH NO! He drove as if the back of the car was the front down the main street of Rupert ID. (The brake was held in place if we stopped in reverse) He said he would go slow, but 45 mph backwards doesn't feel very slow. We came up behind a tractor/harvester and he pulled around it quite quickly. I was getting nauseous, my mom kept yelling that he wasn't going slow enough, I thought that we were going to die. My dad finally got sick because he was driving backwards so he turned around and decided to try the emergency brake. Well the emergency brake was just shaved down so it was not great at stopping... But we made it alive to a little car parts place called Schow's and this shop was AMAZING! They helped my dad find a bolt that would hold on the break until we could go to the wrecking yard and get the right one. They also did not charge us for the bolt they gave us. We made it to the wrecking yard, got the right bolt on and were on our way to Boise, ID.
I told my dad that although I thought we would die, it would be a great story that I'm sure we will talk about for years to come!
My nephew was graduating so my parents and I decided to take a road trip to see the miraculous event (if Kevin reads this, he knows I'm kidding) and as much as I persisted to take my car (VW Passat) my mom insisted on taking theirs (Ford Expedition) that had just had new brakes put on and was still creaking a bit... So they picked me up at about 9am, after I had run some errands and got some snack food. I'm not a big morning person. I can get up and moving, but usually remain quiet until I am fully awake, if I take a shower, then its right after that, if I take a shower at night, that time increases in the morning.
So as we started out I put on my headphones and tuned into my iPod. We stopped in Farmington for gas and more road trip snack foods and then were on our way. About two hours (halfway) I needed to stop at the restroom and my dad decided Rupert would be a good idea. As we exited the tires made the WORST noise I had ever heard. It sounded like the axle was dropping off the tire and hitting the frame of the car. My mom started to freak out and grab the handle on the door and she started asking my dad what it was. As he was not under the car, he was not sure, but knew it was something with the brakes. We turned into the gas station and went to the bathroom. I love my parents dearly, but with stuff like this, I know my dad will figure it out and would just as soon tune out the discussion of how between the two of them... sometimes. So when I got back I put my iPod back on and waited to hear what we would be doing. Turns out that a bolt that held the brake on had shimmied out and no longer was holding the brake on. Rupert was only 5 miles off the exit so we decided to head that direction and hope to find a car parts place. As we headed toward the street my dad put the foot on the brake and it was a horrid sound. Before I know it he is turning the car around and driving backwards. At first I thought he was just going to try it out in the parking lot... OH NO! He drove as if the back of the car was the front down the main street of Rupert ID. (The brake was held in place if we stopped in reverse) He said he would go slow, but 45 mph backwards doesn't feel very slow. We came up behind a tractor/harvester and he pulled around it quite quickly. I was getting nauseous, my mom kept yelling that he wasn't going slow enough, I thought that we were going to die. My dad finally got sick because he was driving backwards so he turned around and decided to try the emergency brake. Well the emergency brake was just shaved down so it was not great at stopping... But we made it alive to a little car parts place called Schow's and this shop was AMAZING! They helped my dad find a bolt that would hold on the break until we could go to the wrecking yard and get the right one. They also did not charge us for the bolt they gave us. We made it to the wrecking yard, got the right bolt on and were on our way to Boise, ID.
I told my dad that although I thought we would die, it would be a great story that I'm sure we will talk about for years to come!
Monday, June 1, 2009
New Moon Trailer!
If you haven't seen it yet, I would suggest you take a few minutes and watch!!!
On the introduction during the MTV Movie Awards Taylor Lautner stated "Get your Tivo's ready because you are going to want to watch this more than once!" And he was right, and I'm glad I had mine already set! Hope you enjoy!
On the introduction during the MTV Movie Awards Taylor Lautner stated "Get your Tivo's ready because you are going to want to watch this more than once!" And he was right, and I'm glad I had mine already set! Hope you enjoy!
Monday, May 25, 2009
Memorial Day
Can I just say how much I love my TIVO?!?! Seriously the best invention ever made. Here I sit on a Monday waiting for my laundry to finish, cleaning my room and bathroom and watching the edited version of Underworld: Evolution. For some reason I am more productive at whatever I'm doing with a good action flick on. I clean more, do more laundry, as well as even sew faster (which I should be finishing the last purse for my friend Julia).
Today is Memorial Day and I met my family at the cemetery to place flowers on my Grandparents grave. I look forward to this day all year. I get to set aside to remember my Grandparents that I love and miss so much! Whenever I remember my Grandpa my heart aches to see him once again. He was truly a wonderful man that I have never heard an ill word spoken about. He was loving and generous and genuine. I would be happy if I was 1/4 of what he was.
I visited with my Uncle and his wife and daughter, with her new baby (so cute!!) I get to see them often, as they are theatre people like I am, and are always up for a play. Its so fun to see things with them, and I am hoping to get the chance again shortly.
I love days like today that are just laid back and I can do what I need to so I can feel sane again and ready for the week ahead. I also love and need my alone time, which I am able to get on these days. I'm so excited for my family BBQ tonight, nothing like gathering together as a family around an open flame roasting hot dogs and laughing together!
I guess I should get back to the laundry and cleaning that I still have. I hope everyone is having a good Memorial Day.
Today is Memorial Day and I met my family at the cemetery to place flowers on my Grandparents grave. I look forward to this day all year. I get to set aside to remember my Grandparents that I love and miss so much! Whenever I remember my Grandpa my heart aches to see him once again. He was truly a wonderful man that I have never heard an ill word spoken about. He was loving and generous and genuine. I would be happy if I was 1/4 of what he was.
I visited with my Uncle and his wife and daughter, with her new baby (so cute!!) I get to see them often, as they are theatre people like I am, and are always up for a play. Its so fun to see things with them, and I am hoping to get the chance again shortly.
I love days like today that are just laid back and I can do what I need to so I can feel sane again and ready for the week ahead. I also love and need my alone time, which I am able to get on these days. I'm so excited for my family BBQ tonight, nothing like gathering together as a family around an open flame roasting hot dogs and laughing together!
I guess I should get back to the laundry and cleaning that I still have. I hope everyone is having a good Memorial Day.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Pardon My Venting
I'm not really one to vent on my blog, however, I do this often in real life and it usually makes me feel a little better.
I'm feeling a lot of things today and am overall feeling... well... like I need to vent. So here goes....
I'm a people pleaser, I know this, and I've tried to keep it under control. However when I find myself lumped into a blog and am invited to no longer read it, I'm hurt. I feel like I have done something wrong, when this isn't the case, and it bothers me that someone, maybe even someone that I don't even know doesn't like me. I hate it when people don't like me, especially when they haven't even given me a chance. Its not very nice, and I don't appreciate it.
I keep trying to get myself to go to the gym, and once I'm there and running on the treadmill with P!nk blaring in my ears from my iPod I enjoy it. I'm one that loves my "me time" and I like how I feel. So why is it that I have such a hard time going??? I wake up late, stay up late, and have plans at night. I need to get my sorry butt out of bed and go so I don't hate the way I look when I see myself in the mirror.
I also want to do something with my hair, its bugging me! I swear I look the same no matter what I do with it, cut wise. I try to change the cut, and three days later looks like the same exact thing! UGH! I hate it!
One of my best friends at work just gave her notice, and I'm so sad about it, but so happy for her! She gets to stay home with her kids. I will miss her dearly!!! We talk fabric and patterns and go to lunch, when I can.
I think a good action flick, running and a girls night out may be in order!
I'm feeling a lot of things today and am overall feeling... well... like I need to vent. So here goes....
I'm a people pleaser, I know this, and I've tried to keep it under control. However when I find myself lumped into a blog and am invited to no longer read it, I'm hurt. I feel like I have done something wrong, when this isn't the case, and it bothers me that someone, maybe even someone that I don't even know doesn't like me. I hate it when people don't like me, especially when they haven't even given me a chance. Its not very nice, and I don't appreciate it.
I keep trying to get myself to go to the gym, and once I'm there and running on the treadmill with P!nk blaring in my ears from my iPod I enjoy it. I'm one that loves my "me time" and I like how I feel. So why is it that I have such a hard time going??? I wake up late, stay up late, and have plans at night. I need to get my sorry butt out of bed and go so I don't hate the way I look when I see myself in the mirror.
I also want to do something with my hair, its bugging me! I swear I look the same no matter what I do with it, cut wise. I try to change the cut, and three days later looks like the same exact thing! UGH! I hate it!
One of my best friends at work just gave her notice, and I'm so sad about it, but so happy for her! She gets to stay home with her kids. I will miss her dearly!!! We talk fabric and patterns and go to lunch, when I can.
I think a good action flick, running and a girls night out may be in order!
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Update as Promised!
Okay, so where to start. I know its been a long time, but I am thankful to say that my grades paid off for all the studying that went into this semester. One more down... a few more to go. :)
I love my school and am so grateful to be able to attend and meet the people and have professors that care if you understand what they are teaching you. Many times I've had a professor stop a lecture and say I look confused. (which I guess I do a lot... maybe I should work on that. LOL)
Anyways, so far its been a great summer. I purchased a Lagoon season passport with my brother and his family. I've been to three midnight showings of movies, and going to another one tomorrow night. (I will try to write some reviews if anyone is interested)
Things in my personal life... well... hmmm... that seems to never change. I keep myself busy and bury myself in my hobbies and interests to keep my mind of the things that I am not doing. Still no dating, and its actually gotten to the point where I don't feel sad about it. Its been so long that I just can't see it happening, and strangely enough, it doesn't make me sad.
I'm doing so much to be the woman that I want to be that the being dependent on someone else and how that person feels about me is becoming less and less important to how I define myself and my social status. People still ask me why I'm not married, or why I'm not dating, and really I have no answer, other than to shrug my shoulders. I'm pursuing my life long goal and getting closer and closer as the months progress, and I just get excited. I'm trying to be a better friend to those around me. I'm trying to work on being happy as much as possible. I'm trying to be a better aunt, sister, sister-in-law, and daughter.
I'm content with where I am, but not content to stay as I am. I am looking forward to the things that are sure to come my way that will stretch the way that I see myself, and the capabilities that I feel I am lacking.
I love my school and am so grateful to be able to attend and meet the people and have professors that care if you understand what they are teaching you. Many times I've had a professor stop a lecture and say I look confused. (which I guess I do a lot... maybe I should work on that. LOL)
Anyways, so far its been a great summer. I purchased a Lagoon season passport with my brother and his family. I've been to three midnight showings of movies, and going to another one tomorrow night. (I will try to write some reviews if anyone is interested)
Things in my personal life... well... hmmm... that seems to never change. I keep myself busy and bury myself in my hobbies and interests to keep my mind of the things that I am not doing. Still no dating, and its actually gotten to the point where I don't feel sad about it. Its been so long that I just can't see it happening, and strangely enough, it doesn't make me sad.
I'm doing so much to be the woman that I want to be that the being dependent on someone else and how that person feels about me is becoming less and less important to how I define myself and my social status. People still ask me why I'm not married, or why I'm not dating, and really I have no answer, other than to shrug my shoulders. I'm pursuing my life long goal and getting closer and closer as the months progress, and I just get excited. I'm trying to be a better friend to those around me. I'm trying to work on being happy as much as possible. I'm trying to be a better aunt, sister, sister-in-law, and daughter.
I'm content with where I am, but not content to stay as I am. I am looking forward to the things that are sure to come my way that will stretch the way that I see myself, and the capabilities that I feel I am lacking.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Update Coming...
I'm sorry for anyone that might actually read this... but I promise to update shortly!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Carried Away
Wet hands,
Reaching out,
Blue eyes look
Fingernails,
Cutting through the sand,
Wet hands,
Blue eyes,
Fingernails,
White Sand,
Crushed,
Sea shells
Reaching out,
Blue eyes look
Fingernails,
Cutting through the sand,
Wet hands,
Blue eyes,
Fingernails,
White Sand,
Crushed,
Sea shells
Thirty Years & 100 Posts
Okay, so I have been so bad at posting lately. I'm not sure how many people actually read my blog, but I felt like I should update it a bit. I have been thirty for near two months... and so far, its GREAT! I am truly happy with how things are going so far. I do realize that I might have just jinxed the whole thing, but I just wanted to say, its been wonderful.
I have pictures, and should post them at some point. My birthday was great. I spent the morning with Felicity and then all my friends went to dinner and a movie. I have some of the greatest friends! They make me laugh!
Classes are busy, but going well as far as I know. I have a test tomorrow and definitely should be studying but there is only so much organic chemistry you can look at before it all starts looking the same!
My love life... still the same, single. Not much more to add to that at this point. My hopes are that that will change at some point, but until then this blog will still be the rantings of a single girl in want.
I also spent spring break with my brother and his family in Idaho. I was lucky enough to go fly fishing with him on the Owyhee River and caught a nice Brown.
I promise if anyone really reads this blog I will try to keep it updated more often.
I have pictures, and should post them at some point. My birthday was great. I spent the morning with Felicity and then all my friends went to dinner and a movie. I have some of the greatest friends! They make me laugh!
Classes are busy, but going well as far as I know. I have a test tomorrow and definitely should be studying but there is only so much organic chemistry you can look at before it all starts looking the same!
My love life... still the same, single. Not much more to add to that at this point. My hopes are that that will change at some point, but until then this blog will still be the rantings of a single girl in want.
I also spent spring break with my brother and his family in Idaho. I was lucky enough to go fly fishing with him on the Owyhee River and caught a nice Brown.
I promise if anyone really reads this blog I will try to keep it updated more often.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
New Year... Independent!
So its a new year... I'm not one to write down resolutions, because honestly I rarely keep them, so why set myself up for failure? Right? So anyways, I brought in the new year with my own tradition. I took a long hot bath, made myself a cheap dinner (two hot dogs, not grilled but still good) worked on a Wicked puzzle that was a Christmas gift while watching/listening to Iron Man & The Dark Knight. When midnight rolled around I opened a bottle of sparkling cider, smiled and told myself here is to a new year, a good year. Then proceeded to drink nearly the entire bottle! What can I say, I like the stuff.
So this year, the year I turn 20-10, I still don't have resolutions, but I do have something that for a new year, is new to me. A positive outlook, that with no high hopes. Other than getting into the nursing program later this year I really hold no hope for huge change. While this may sound sad to some, for me I feel its healthy and actually makes me smile. I finally feel okay to be on my own. Don't get me wrong, I'm a romantic at heart (thus the name of this blog) but I don't feel dependent on the fact of a relationship. I don't feel that my status as a person depends on the status in my love life. I know my friends are planning a party for my thirtieth birthday and I'm just so happy that I have girlfriends that care enough to get together on my birthday and goof around with me!!!
So this year, the year I turn 20-10, I still don't have resolutions, but I do have something that for a new year, is new to me. A positive outlook, that with no high hopes. Other than getting into the nursing program later this year I really hold no hope for huge change. While this may sound sad to some, for me I feel its healthy and actually makes me smile. I finally feel okay to be on my own. Don't get me wrong, I'm a romantic at heart (thus the name of this blog) but I don't feel dependent on the fact of a relationship. I don't feel that my status as a person depends on the status in my love life. I know my friends are planning a party for my thirtieth birthday and I'm just so happy that I have girlfriends that care enough to get together on my birthday and goof around with me!!!
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