A lot has changed since I last posted.
The biggest has probably been the fact that I received a promotion at work, I am now a supervisor, management... Still seems crazy to me! I also found out that I passed my Human Anatomy class, with a B-, not the best, but also not the worst I could have done. The work thing is still all new to me, I am still trying to figure out the organization and the way I want things to go. I do know that I want to make everything easier than it seems to be now. So, I will be asking a lot of people for advise, at least for the first little bit. :)
However, I am off work until the 2nd of January. I am looking for the time off work, and school. I started the holidays off with a wonderful present for me, my sister, and my sister-in-law that lives near us (the other one lives out of state, so sadly could not join us) from my Mom. She took us to a nail salon and we received a spa treatment manicure & pedicure. It was 3.5 hours of heaven!!! We chatted and soaked our feet, and sat in the massage chairs. It was great!!! I love being able to spend time with the girls in my family. We get along really well.
Well I've had a great day, but a lot of running, so right now I am watching Iron Chef America and ready for bed. So off I go, but I hope that everyone is having a wonderful time getting ready for the holidays!!!
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Friday, December 14, 2007
Movie Review: I Am Legend
First let me start by explaining that I am a movie person. I love movies, and go to them as often as possible.
My brother and I enjoy going to the midnight showing of the movies that we are looking forward to seeing, so I thought it would be fun to do little reviews of Last night was I Am Legend starring Will Smith.
Let me just assure you that I will not go into much of the premise, and will not give anything away (I don't enjoy when people do that to me...).
This movie takes place in a desolate New York. The scenery is very well done, and always has this eerie feeling. Will Smith is an incredible actor and in this picture, much like Cast Away with Tom Hanks, it is mostly Will Smith. The emotions portrayed by Will Smith makes you realize how alone he feels with this enemy lurking in the dark, not far away.
This is a very intense movie, a lot of jumping on my part occurred during the 2 hour flick. However, I enjoyed it, thoroughly. Will Smith again proves that he can act, and does it well.
My brother and I enjoy going to the midnight showing of the movies that we are looking forward to seeing, so I thought it would be fun to do little reviews of Last night was I Am Legend starring Will Smith.
Let me just assure you that I will not go into much of the premise, and will not give anything away (I don't enjoy when people do that to me...).
This movie takes place in a desolate New York. The scenery is very well done, and always has this eerie feeling. Will Smith is an incredible actor and in this picture, much like Cast Away with Tom Hanks, it is mostly Will Smith. The emotions portrayed by Will Smith makes you realize how alone he feels with this enemy lurking in the dark, not far away.
This is a very intense movie, a lot of jumping on my part occurred during the 2 hour flick. However, I enjoyed it, thoroughly. Will Smith again proves that he can act, and does it well.
Monday, December 10, 2007
The Fued
Okay, so school finals are done for me, and now I have time for other things! :)
So I read Kellee's blog where she insists that Spike is better than Angel. So its been awhile since I've watched Buffy the Vampire Slayer, so I thought I would look at pictures... I found this one:
Yup... Still sticking to my original Angel position... WOW! Tall, dark, and handsome! Okay so Kellee... I think we are just going to have to agree to disagree on this one. :)
So I read Kellee's blog where she insists that Spike is better than Angel. So its been awhile since I've watched Buffy the Vampire Slayer, so I thought I would look at pictures... I found this one:
Yup... Still sticking to my original Angel position... WOW! Tall, dark, and handsome! Okay so Kellee... I think we are just going to have to agree to disagree on this one. :)
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Following Kellee
Okay, so I was just curious and checking out what my friends have blogged lately and I came across Kellee's and started taking some of the same quizzes... sadly the "How Hot are Your Kisses?" one turned out the same as hers.
Anyhow I wasn't going to post any but then I saw this one on the side and HAD to take it... :)
This was so true to me that I just had to put it on here.
Thanks to all my friends for doing neat things on their blogs that I can look at and get ideas from.
Anyhow I wasn't going to post any but then I saw this one on the side and HAD to take it... :)
| You Don't Need a Man, but You Want One! |
 You like having a guy in your life, and overall, you prefer not to be single. You won't go out with a guy out of desperation.. you rather be alone. However, when you're single, you do tend to obsess a little over dating. Because no matter how good your single life is, it's better with a great guy around. |
This was so true to me that I just had to put it on here.
Thanks to all my friends for doing neat things on their blogs that I can look at and get ideas from.
Thanksgiving
So today is Thanksgiving and I have been thinking the last few days about a post with just the things I am thankful for on this day would be a good idea.
We had a wonderful Thanksgiving dinner at my parents house with all of my immediate family (21 of us).
I am thankful that we are all as close as we are.
I am thankful that I have my parents as such great examples of giving people.
I am thankful for my belief's and the knowledge I have that I am a daughter of God.
I am truly grateful for all that I have in my life and the things I have in my future.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!
Hope it was as good as mine. :)
We had a wonderful Thanksgiving dinner at my parents house with all of my immediate family (21 of us).
I am thankful that we are all as close as we are.
I am thankful that I have my parents as such great examples of giving people.
I am thankful for my belief's and the knowledge I have that I am a daughter of God.
I am truly grateful for all that I have in my life and the things I have in my future.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!
Hope it was as good as mine. :)
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
5 Years
November 21, 2002.....
The date that my divorce was finalized...
This day is a day of reflection. I have tried to not look at this as a sad day, because there are so many things that I am happy about now, that I did not have then.
I have my family, and have found out how wonderful they can be when you need someone to lean on.
I have found that I have the strength to continue when I have thought there is no way to go any further.
I have started to pursue my dreams,
I found happiness without relying on anyone to make the hard decisions for me.
Through these past 5 years, and even before then I have been through a lot of heartache, a lot of trials and a lot of dispair. However, no matter how I look at the things behind me, the things ahead of me, and the place and person I am now... I would do it again in a heart beat. I have a strong belief that things happen for a reason, and I needed those things in my life at that time. My ex husband was not a horrible person, we both made bad choices and regretting having to leave the relationship, but both realized we were happier when we were apart. We were only meant to be in each others life's for a short time. I was blessed to have him around when I was, and I hope, I hope that he feels that way about me.
I hold no hard feelings for my ex, or how the situation turned out.
This day is not sad, not exactly, for me... however it is a day of reflection for me and to take stock in where I have been, and where I am going.
What a wonderful time for this day to fall, Thanksgiving is just around the corner!
The date that my divorce was finalized...
This day is a day of reflection. I have tried to not look at this as a sad day, because there are so many things that I am happy about now, that I did not have then.
I have my family, and have found out how wonderful they can be when you need someone to lean on.
I have found that I have the strength to continue when I have thought there is no way to go any further.
I have started to pursue my dreams,
I found happiness without relying on anyone to make the hard decisions for me.
Through these past 5 years, and even before then I have been through a lot of heartache, a lot of trials and a lot of dispair. However, no matter how I look at the things behind me, the things ahead of me, and the place and person I am now... I would do it again in a heart beat. I have a strong belief that things happen for a reason, and I needed those things in my life at that time. My ex husband was not a horrible person, we both made bad choices and regretting having to leave the relationship, but both realized we were happier when we were apart. We were only meant to be in each others life's for a short time. I was blessed to have him around when I was, and I hope, I hope that he feels that way about me.
I hold no hard feelings for my ex, or how the situation turned out.
This day is not sad, not exactly, for me... however it is a day of reflection for me and to take stock in where I have been, and where I am going.
What a wonderful time for this day to fall, Thanksgiving is just around the corner!
Friday, November 16, 2007
Alone Time
Okay, so I want to write something, but the short story I had in mind isn't working out, I'm still tweaking it, but will put it on when I like it... or until I just can't fix it anymore... Until then, you may get some ramblings.
Anyone who is close to me knows that I need some time to myself. Alone time. I don't know why exactly I need this, and it is very clear to everyone around me when in fact it has come time to need this. I tend to get ornery and mean.
Alone time for me consists of the little things I like to do. Take baths, listen to classical music or instrumental music, read a book, watch a movie or tv, take a bath, sew, or do a craft. I don't know why I am fine after I have this time. I work through problems, I realize that my life is not that hard. Sometimes I realize that the only reason I am in the same place I have been in the last few years is because of the lack of work on my part. No one is to blame but myself.
However, I have a long time plan in motion and I just have to keep that in mind. I have to realize and tell myself that everything in good time. Which brings me to another thing, patience.... This is something I have struggled with my entire life! Everytime I think I've got a handle on it, thats when I hit a wall and want everything NOW! Not tomorrow or in a year or even in five years... I want it NOW!
Anywho... I'm starting to ramble. I started this just because I have had to have alone time the last few nights, and I have had a hard few days for personal reasons, but am starting to feel better. :) Thank goodness!!!
Anyone who is close to me knows that I need some time to myself. Alone time. I don't know why exactly I need this, and it is very clear to everyone around me when in fact it has come time to need this. I tend to get ornery and mean.
Alone time for me consists of the little things I like to do. Take baths, listen to classical music or instrumental music, read a book, watch a movie or tv, take a bath, sew, or do a craft. I don't know why I am fine after I have this time. I work through problems, I realize that my life is not that hard. Sometimes I realize that the only reason I am in the same place I have been in the last few years is because of the lack of work on my part. No one is to blame but myself.
However, I have a long time plan in motion and I just have to keep that in mind. I have to realize and tell myself that everything in good time. Which brings me to another thing, patience.... This is something I have struggled with my entire life! Everytime I think I've got a handle on it, thats when I hit a wall and want everything NOW! Not tomorrow or in a year or even in five years... I want it NOW!
Anywho... I'm starting to ramble. I started this just because I have had to have alone time the last few nights, and I have had a hard few days for personal reasons, but am starting to feel better. :) Thank goodness!!!
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Sunday, November 11, 2007
100 Things
Okay, so Julia's sister did this 100 things about me, I thought it would be easy, after all my family always tells me "Its all about me" saying thats my frame of mind. However, it was more difficult than I thought... So here goes:
1. I am the youngest of four children in my family.
2. I don't think I am too spoiled.
3. My siblings think that I am.
4. I love shoes.
5. I love movies.
6. I like to laugh at movies or tv.. and loud. (its fun, give it a try)
7. I like crime television shows.
8. I love live theatre.
9. I like to eat sushi.
10. During the summer I paint my toenails and give myself pedicures regularly.
11. I sew quilts.
12. I am becoming my mother.
13. I am a lot like my father.
14. I am very close to my family, together, and individually.
15. I am proud to say that I am the daughter of Jack & Sherrie.
16. I enjoy giving gifts to my friends.
17. I love being an aunt.
18. I have incredible nieces and nephews.
19. My parents are amazing people, and always looking to help those around them.
20. I'm starting to enjoy attending college.
21. I like the classic red roses.
22. I quote movies, and love it!
23. I like going out to eat with my siblings.
24. My family give me great strength.
25. I have a hard time getting comfortable enough to fall asleep.
26. I love hot baths.
27. I own about 10 pairs of black shoes.
28. I need more black shoes.
29. I am a romantic at heart.
30. I daydream.
31. I'm addicted to diet soda (diet coke & diet dr. pepper are my favorites).
32. I snack when I'm watching t.v., and not because I'm hungry.
33. I'm emotional, but attempt to hide it.
34. I am afraid.
35. I am anxious to be a nurse.
36. I hope and try to be a good friend.
37. I love listening to my friends life stories.
38. I have GREAT friends!!
39. I'm not a very social person, but am working on it.
40. I like to keep myself busy.
41. I tend to have multiple projects going at once.
42. I think its a great quality to be able to laugh when you are alone.
43. I sing in the car.
44. If I am listening to a musical... I tend to act in my car as well.
45. I do not hide from my mistakes, I try to learn from them and move on.
46. I am far far far from perfect.
47. I have mood swings.
48. I love having a Tivo, and it was a great christmas present from my parents.
49. When I'm nervous I bite the inside of my bottom lip.
50. I always grab three papertowels in the restroom after washing my hands.
51. I dance along with certain movies.
52. I love my family traditions, even the stupid ones. :)
53. I always wanted to learn how to paint.
54. I have never rode a horse.
55. I enjoy fly-fishing with my brothers.
56. My brothers give me a hard time, and I actually enjoy it (for the most part).
57. I've been to NYC twice, and would love to go again!
58. I'm secretly scared to travel, but love it at the same time.
59. I'm always afraid I smell.
60. Green is my favorite color, red is a close running second.
61. I have a tendancy to act like the Wicked Witch.
62. I like to fabric shop with my Mom & Sister, but 2 hours is about my limit.
63. I like to watch movies over and over again.
64. I eat out... a lot!
65. I wish that I could write a great story.
66. Sometimes right after I put on my makeup, I think I look GREAT!
67. I need to drink more water.
68. I wish I would take more pictures of my friends and family.
69. I like black & white photos.
70. I wish I was a better photographer.
71. I like watching my brother Scott cook.
72. I like watching my sister Michelle do her crafts, she is amazing with them!
73. I like watching movies and going to musicals with my brother Russell.
74. I love making a fool of myself with my family!!!
75. I laugh and cry while reading books.
76. Even if I have seen the movie a hundred times, I still laugh and cry like it is the first.
77. I need alone time, every now and then, to keep me somewhat sane.
78. I have found that all of my family members need this time as well, I guess its a family thing.
79. My Dad and I believe that we are blenders, we go unnoticed, such as in Princess Diaries when she says "I got sat on again" (we say this to each other frequently).
80. When I date someone my parents ask his age, then "whats his bag of hair" (from Fever Pitch).
81. I like to make my friends smile.
82. I think people have more worth than they think, and need to give themselves credit more often.
83. Sadly, I think I am among them.
84. I have been through a lot in my near 29 years.
85. I have few regrets, but know I learned from them, so I'm alright with how my life has turned out, in spite of some bad choices.
86. I'm a good employee and get little credit for the work I do.
87. I wish that I could write incredible, yet simple poetry, even if it was just for me.
88. I loved the scene in Game Plan when Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson sang Elvis Presley.
89. I'm a sucker for a guy on a motorcycle.
90. I love guys with accents, English, Irish & Scottish are probably my favorites.
91. I'm excited for Christmas, and some of the gifts I have to give this year.
92. I know I could call any one of my family members with a problem at any given moment and they would be right there for me.
93. I go shopping on Black Friday (day after Thanksgiving) with my family every year and love it, even if I don't buy anything.
94. I have a black thumb, but somehow have this amazing live plant in my office that is doing great!
95. I need to work on not procrastinating house work... It doesn't go away no matter how long I wait.
96. I have a pair of green high heels that I bought specifically to wear to Wicked the musical in NY.
97. My last trip to NY was a short 48 hours.
98. I am planning on a trip to Europe with my best friend Felicity after we both graduate college. (I'm so excited!!!)
99. My first car was a '78 Dodge Colt that was green that looked JUST like Kermit the frog, so we called him Kermit.
100. I want to do a Waltz at my wedding with my new husband.
There! I'm done. Kellee finished before me, but I still finished! YAY!
1. I am the youngest of four children in my family.
2. I don't think I am too spoiled.
3. My siblings think that I am.
4. I love shoes.
5. I love movies.
6. I like to laugh at movies or tv.. and loud. (its fun, give it a try)
7. I like crime television shows.
8. I love live theatre.
9. I like to eat sushi.
10. During the summer I paint my toenails and give myself pedicures regularly.
11. I sew quilts.
12. I am becoming my mother.
13. I am a lot like my father.
14. I am very close to my family, together, and individually.
15. I am proud to say that I am the daughter of Jack & Sherrie.
16. I enjoy giving gifts to my friends.
17. I love being an aunt.
18. I have incredible nieces and nephews.
19. My parents are amazing people, and always looking to help those around them.
20. I'm starting to enjoy attending college.
21. I like the classic red roses.
22. I quote movies, and love it!
23. I like going out to eat with my siblings.
24. My family give me great strength.
25. I have a hard time getting comfortable enough to fall asleep.
26. I love hot baths.
27. I own about 10 pairs of black shoes.
28. I need more black shoes.
29. I am a romantic at heart.
30. I daydream.
31. I'm addicted to diet soda (diet coke & diet dr. pepper are my favorites).
32. I snack when I'm watching t.v., and not because I'm hungry.
33. I'm emotional, but attempt to hide it.
34. I am afraid.
35. I am anxious to be a nurse.
36. I hope and try to be a good friend.
37. I love listening to my friends life stories.
38. I have GREAT friends!!
39. I'm not a very social person, but am working on it.
40. I like to keep myself busy.
41. I tend to have multiple projects going at once.
42. I think its a great quality to be able to laugh when you are alone.
43. I sing in the car.
44. If I am listening to a musical... I tend to act in my car as well.
45. I do not hide from my mistakes, I try to learn from them and move on.
46. I am far far far from perfect.
47. I have mood swings.
48. I love having a Tivo, and it was a great christmas present from my parents.
49. When I'm nervous I bite the inside of my bottom lip.
50. I always grab three papertowels in the restroom after washing my hands.
51. I dance along with certain movies.
52. I love my family traditions, even the stupid ones. :)
53. I always wanted to learn how to paint.
54. I have never rode a horse.
55. I enjoy fly-fishing with my brothers.
56. My brothers give me a hard time, and I actually enjoy it (for the most part).
57. I've been to NYC twice, and would love to go again!
58. I'm secretly scared to travel, but love it at the same time.
59. I'm always afraid I smell.
60. Green is my favorite color, red is a close running second.
61. I have a tendancy to act like the Wicked Witch.
62. I like to fabric shop with my Mom & Sister, but 2 hours is about my limit.
63. I like to watch movies over and over again.
64. I eat out... a lot!
65. I wish that I could write a great story.
66. Sometimes right after I put on my makeup, I think I look GREAT!
67. I need to drink more water.
68. I wish I would take more pictures of my friends and family.
69. I like black & white photos.
70. I wish I was a better photographer.
71. I like watching my brother Scott cook.
72. I like watching my sister Michelle do her crafts, she is amazing with them!
73. I like watching movies and going to musicals with my brother Russell.
74. I love making a fool of myself with my family!!!
75. I laugh and cry while reading books.
76. Even if I have seen the movie a hundred times, I still laugh and cry like it is the first.
77. I need alone time, every now and then, to keep me somewhat sane.
78. I have found that all of my family members need this time as well, I guess its a family thing.
79. My Dad and I believe that we are blenders, we go unnoticed, such as in Princess Diaries when she says "I got sat on again" (we say this to each other frequently).
80. When I date someone my parents ask his age, then "whats his bag of hair" (from Fever Pitch).
81. I like to make my friends smile.
82. I think people have more worth than they think, and need to give themselves credit more often.
83. Sadly, I think I am among them.
84. I have been through a lot in my near 29 years.
85. I have few regrets, but know I learned from them, so I'm alright with how my life has turned out, in spite of some bad choices.
86. I'm a good employee and get little credit for the work I do.
87. I wish that I could write incredible, yet simple poetry, even if it was just for me.
88. I loved the scene in Game Plan when Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson sang Elvis Presley.
89. I'm a sucker for a guy on a motorcycle.
90. I love guys with accents, English, Irish & Scottish are probably my favorites.
91. I'm excited for Christmas, and some of the gifts I have to give this year.
92. I know I could call any one of my family members with a problem at any given moment and they would be right there for me.
93. I go shopping on Black Friday (day after Thanksgiving) with my family every year and love it, even if I don't buy anything.
94. I have a black thumb, but somehow have this amazing live plant in my office that is doing great!
95. I need to work on not procrastinating house work... It doesn't go away no matter how long I wait.
96. I have a pair of green high heels that I bought specifically to wear to Wicked the musical in NY.
97. My last trip to NY was a short 48 hours.
98. I am planning on a trip to Europe with my best friend Felicity after we both graduate college. (I'm so excited!!!)
99. My first car was a '78 Dodge Colt that was green that looked JUST like Kermit the frog, so we called him Kermit.
100. I want to do a Waltz at my wedding with my new husband.
There! I'm done. Kellee finished before me, but I still finished! YAY!
Friday, November 2, 2007
Nothing to Say
So what do you say when you want to be heard, but yet have nothing to say?!
I have the urge to be heard, to be seen...
I feel... but yet have nothing to feel...
I'm not depressed... yet not happy...
I don't like to complain... I don't like to gripe...
I don't like to admit I need anything...
I am independant...I like to rely on myself...
but sometimes... sometimes like tonight...
I want for companionship...
I want that someone who could feel the question...
without my asking...
I have the urge to be heard, to be seen...
I feel... but yet have nothing to feel...
I'm not depressed... yet not happy...
I don't like to complain... I don't like to gripe...
I don't like to admit I need anything...
I am independant...I like to rely on myself...
but sometimes... sometimes like tonight...
I want for companionship...
I want that someone who could feel the question...
without my asking...
Monday, September 24, 2007
Awake
She awoke to the smell of vanilla and spice that lingered in the air. Her hand still laid on the smooth skin of his chest. She moved her head and fingers to feel that he was real. She had dreamt of this for so long, she was reluctant to believe that he was truly there.
She opened her eyes, expecting to see only pillow and to awake from her dream, but there he was, she smiled at the thought that they were now man and wife. She leaned up on her elbow as to improve her point of view. She wanted to study every inch of his face, the stubble that had grown overnight on his chin, the way his eyes looked while he slept, The way that his mouth slightly curved into a smile. She wondered if he dreamt while he silently slumbered, if he thought of her as she thought of him. She could not keep the distance between them any longer, she moved silently, careful not move the sheets. She softly put her lips to his cheek, holding her them to his skin and breathing in the smell of his aftershave from the day before.
He stirred, sighing as he slowly opened his eyes. She moved slightly back to meet his gaze. She was surprised by the happiness that was expressed through his eyes, with no words spoken.
His hand was to her cheek before she even noticed it moving. He pulled her close, until their noses touched, his lip grazing hers, teasing. He paused, keeping her face there. He whispered "Your really here, this isn't a dream?" Astonished by his words she could not move her lips in reply, only nodding in accord. "I love you, my wife". She smiled at his sentiment as his lips crushed against hers with passion.
She opened her eyes, expecting to see only pillow and to awake from her dream, but there he was, she smiled at the thought that they were now man and wife. She leaned up on her elbow as to improve her point of view. She wanted to study every inch of his face, the stubble that had grown overnight on his chin, the way his eyes looked while he slept, The way that his mouth slightly curved into a smile. She wondered if he dreamt while he silently slumbered, if he thought of her as she thought of him. She could not keep the distance between them any longer, she moved silently, careful not move the sheets. She softly put her lips to his cheek, holding her them to his skin and breathing in the smell of his aftershave from the day before.
He stirred, sighing as he slowly opened his eyes. She moved slightly back to meet his gaze. She was surprised by the happiness that was expressed through his eyes, with no words spoken.
His hand was to her cheek before she even noticed it moving. He pulled her close, until their noses touched, his lip grazing hers, teasing. He paused, keeping her face there. He whispered "Your really here, this isn't a dream?" Astonished by his words she could not move her lips in reply, only nodding in accord. "I love you, my wife". She smiled at his sentiment as his lips crushed against hers with passion.
Saturday, September 22, 2007
To Dream
Okay, so last night I had a boys night with my nephews, tonight, is girls night with the nieces.
Don't get me wrong I love my nephews and I love hanging out with the boys, but after all, I am a girl!!
We are watching two chick flicks, ate chinese take out and did pedicures on each other.
The first movie I made them watch was one of my favorites!!! Grease 2! I realized that its the movie that made me start to like men on motorcycles. The good guy, with the bad streak. He takes her on a ride in the afternoon and as it turns to night, they stop and kiss in the sunset. This has long been a day dream of mine. Well now, it is also my nieces day dreams. They said the guy was PERFECT. They now love motorcycles and guys with british accents. Which makes me laugh, and I am sure would make none of their parents all too happy.
To be a girl. To be able to day dream, even "to dream the impossible dream". It has its drawbacks, and I have felt them recently, I'm not so sure why, but once in a while, on a night like this, I enjoy everything about being a girl. The pedicures, the painted nails, the purses, the hair, getting dressed up, and of course the shoes. Romance is a part of all of this, a part of who I am. It has been a part of my being since I was a young girl watching Cinderella, singing along and dreaming of my own Prince Charming to "rescue me".
So for now, and until I find my Prince Charming, I will continue to hope and "to dream the impossible dream".
Don't get me wrong I love my nephews and I love hanging out with the boys, but after all, I am a girl!!
We are watching two chick flicks, ate chinese take out and did pedicures on each other.
The first movie I made them watch was one of my favorites!!! Grease 2! I realized that its the movie that made me start to like men on motorcycles. The good guy, with the bad streak. He takes her on a ride in the afternoon and as it turns to night, they stop and kiss in the sunset. This has long been a day dream of mine. Well now, it is also my nieces day dreams. They said the guy was PERFECT. They now love motorcycles and guys with british accents. Which makes me laugh, and I am sure would make none of their parents all too happy.
To be a girl. To be able to day dream, even "to dream the impossible dream". It has its drawbacks, and I have felt them recently, I'm not so sure why, but once in a while, on a night like this, I enjoy everything about being a girl. The pedicures, the painted nails, the purses, the hair, getting dressed up, and of course the shoes. Romance is a part of all of this, a part of who I am. It has been a part of my being since I was a young girl watching Cinderella, singing along and dreaming of my own Prince Charming to "rescue me".
So for now, and until I find my Prince Charming, I will continue to hope and "to dream the impossible dream".
Friday, September 21, 2007
Day to Day
Okay, I can't think of anything interesting to write right now, but I feel the need, so here goes...
Day to day living is what I have,
I get up, get ready for the day, and either go to work or go to school. After work I go home study, clean and/or do laundry.
Don't get my wrong, I'm not trying to complain, its just the day to day living becomes somewhat... monotonous at times.
It seems everyone is dating, getting married, or having children.
I have been divorced nearly 5 years and have not been very lucky (ever really) when it comes to dating.
This sometimes has been a blessing, and sometimes a curse.
I have realized that a lot of how a person feels is their outlook on life. I have tried through many of my struggles and trials to look on the bright side of things. If things in my life had not gone the way that they have, I would not have the job I do now, I would not be able to support myself the way I do, I would not be going to college so that I could have my dream job, and I would not be as independant as I am now. I am so grateful for all that I have and have been through.
When the walk is long and each step gets harder and harder to pick up your feet you just wish you could see the end of the trail. I feel I have come to this, each day is harder to wake up to and do the daily things that I must do to continue in this life, I just want a peak, just a look at the end of the trail, or the book of my life and see "Happily Ever After".
I think I could continue this day to day living if I knew the end was worth it. Right now all I have is hope & faith that that dream ending is getting closer with each day.
Day to day living is what I have,
I get up, get ready for the day, and either go to work or go to school. After work I go home study, clean and/or do laundry.
Don't get my wrong, I'm not trying to complain, its just the day to day living becomes somewhat... monotonous at times.
It seems everyone is dating, getting married, or having children.
I have been divorced nearly 5 years and have not been very lucky (ever really) when it comes to dating.
This sometimes has been a blessing, and sometimes a curse.
I have realized that a lot of how a person feels is their outlook on life. I have tried through many of my struggles and trials to look on the bright side of things. If things in my life had not gone the way that they have, I would not have the job I do now, I would not be able to support myself the way I do, I would not be going to college so that I could have my dream job, and I would not be as independant as I am now. I am so grateful for all that I have and have been through.
When the walk is long and each step gets harder and harder to pick up your feet you just wish you could see the end of the trail. I feel I have come to this, each day is harder to wake up to and do the daily things that I must do to continue in this life, I just want a peak, just a look at the end of the trail, or the book of my life and see "Happily Ever After".
I think I could continue this day to day living if I knew the end was worth it. Right now all I have is hope & faith that that dream ending is getting closer with each day.
Monday, August 27, 2007
A Dream
Sliding her foot into the soft bubbles, followed by the hot water that filled the bathtub. She turned and let her other foot follow. Sinking slowly into the warmth and weightlessness of the water, she could feel the stress of the day melt away. She let her arms lay floating in the bubbles, and her head lay back on the cold porcelain of the tub. Closing her eyes, she let herself escape into a dream.
His hand was open, waiting for hers to be placed, ever so gently on his. With out any words, he was asking for a dance. Wanting to hold her close, be with her and look into her eyes, and nothing else. She smiled, and obliged his request. From the moment her hand touched his, she was swept off her feet into his arms, and onto the floor. She did not even notice if there were others attending this dance, this ball. She only was there for him, and him for her. The music was quiet and smooth, like the dance that it accompanied. . They did not speak, she looked into his eyes, and thought of nothing but her feet moving to the music, his hand on the small of her back, leading her gently in the direction he wanted to move, his eyes taking in her entire body, and the feel of their hands holding one another.
She knew that this was a dream, but did not want to move. This was her time to escape into a world she knew would never come to fruition, but longed for it dearly. The bath was tepid and she slowly emerged from the water into a long white bath robe. Looking longingly into the water, not wanting to let go of the dream, and the feelings that accompanied, she pulled the plug and let the water drain.
His hand was open, waiting for hers to be placed, ever so gently on his. With out any words, he was asking for a dance. Wanting to hold her close, be with her and look into her eyes, and nothing else. She smiled, and obliged his request. From the moment her hand touched his, she was swept off her feet into his arms, and onto the floor. She did not even notice if there were others attending this dance, this ball. She only was there for him, and him for her. The music was quiet and smooth, like the dance that it accompanied. . They did not speak, she looked into his eyes, and thought of nothing but her feet moving to the music, his hand on the small of her back, leading her gently in the direction he wanted to move, his eyes taking in her entire body, and the feel of their hands holding one another.
She knew that this was a dream, but did not want to move. This was her time to escape into a world she knew would never come to fruition, but longed for it dearly. The bath was tepid and she slowly emerged from the water into a long white bath robe. Looking longingly into the water, not wanting to let go of the dream, and the feelings that accompanied, she pulled the plug and let the water drain.
Friday, August 10, 2007
Incapable
I have been told by many, you will find the man you seek when you give up.
To give up all hope?
I think I am incapable!
Why would all that I hope for come when all hope has been lost?
I must leave the light on,
I can be no one but me,
Remain looking onward,
With Hope!
To give up all hope?
I think I am incapable!
Why would all that I hope for come when all hope has been lost?
I must leave the light on,
I can be no one but me,
Remain looking onward,
With Hope!
Apologies
Am I sorry for where I have been?
Not at all!
Am I sorry for where I am?
Not at all!
Am I sorry for who I am?
Not at all!
Am I sorry for not finding,
The Man to share this journey with?
With all that I am!
Not at all!
Am I sorry for where I am?
Not at all!
Am I sorry for who I am?
Not at all!
Am I sorry for not finding,
The Man to share this journey with?
With all that I am!
Sunday, July 29, 2007
An Anniversary
She laid the last of the food on the table and lit the last candle. She smiled at herself for what she had accomplished, and the thought of his face when he saw her effort. She had been planning this night for the last week. It was their anniversary and she wanted him to know how much she truly loved him, and was happy every morning waking up to him laying right beside her.
His favorite meal was now ready and set out for them to enjoy, after dinner, his favorite decadent chocolate cake was waiting for them on a blanket in the front room where she planned to surprise him with his favorite action movie. Following chocolate cake, a hot bath was next on her agenda. She smiled to herself at what she had accomplished.
She jumped as the door opened. She could not see his face behind the large bouquet of all her favorite flowers. She walked towards him so happy to see him and to get the night underway. She grabbed the vase from him, and then saw them, his wonderful blue eyes that she had been daydreaming about all day. They pierced her soul every time their eyes met. It had once made her anxious and nervous, but now loved it, and longed for it every day while they were apart. He set down his briefcase and scooped her up in his thick arms. "Happy Anniversary sweet heart!" They kissed as if it was their first as man and wife, rather than the years that were now behind them as such. The spark was still there and this made her giggle. "I love you, and that giggle of yours!" he replied and took the vase from her to set on the table.
He was surprised with all that she had up her sleeve and inhaled dinner as if it was his first meal in days. She jumped up when he set his fork down after his last bite, grabbed his hand and led him to the room lit only with candles the cake waiting to be cut on the blanket, and the movie menu playing over and over waiting to be played. He stopped which in turn made her stop, she looked at him, hoping he was not dissapointed at the spread before them, but her gaze only met disbelief . He pulled her back into his arms kissed her lovingly and whispered "How was I so lucky to ever have you in my life, let alone as my wife?" The only reply that she could tell him, was exactly how she felt, "I guess you could say we were both lucky".
They sat and ate the cake slowly while the movie played, they watched each other more than the movie. When the credits started to run, she laid her hand on his chest pushing him onto his back on the blanket, sliding her leg over his and sitting comfortably on his lap. She let her hair fall over her shoulders shadowing her face. She lowered her head slowly to his ear and told him "Not one day goes by that I am not thankful you asked me to marry you. I don't show you all the time, but I love you more than I ever thought possible. I love you" At the last sound escaped her lips she kissed his ear. Kissed his cheeked and then, kissed his mouth. She hoped that everything she felt from the tip of her toes to her lips was being conveyed through her kiss. Never wanting this moment to pass she continued to press her lips to his.
His favorite meal was now ready and set out for them to enjoy, after dinner, his favorite decadent chocolate cake was waiting for them on a blanket in the front room where she planned to surprise him with his favorite action movie. Following chocolate cake, a hot bath was next on her agenda. She smiled to herself at what she had accomplished.
She jumped as the door opened. She could not see his face behind the large bouquet of all her favorite flowers. She walked towards him so happy to see him and to get the night underway. She grabbed the vase from him, and then saw them, his wonderful blue eyes that she had been daydreaming about all day. They pierced her soul every time their eyes met. It had once made her anxious and nervous, but now loved it, and longed for it every day while they were apart. He set down his briefcase and scooped her up in his thick arms. "Happy Anniversary sweet heart!" They kissed as if it was their first as man and wife, rather than the years that were now behind them as such. The spark was still there and this made her giggle. "I love you, and that giggle of yours!" he replied and took the vase from her to set on the table.
He was surprised with all that she had up her sleeve and inhaled dinner as if it was his first meal in days. She jumped up when he set his fork down after his last bite, grabbed his hand and led him to the room lit only with candles the cake waiting to be cut on the blanket, and the movie menu playing over and over waiting to be played. He stopped which in turn made her stop, she looked at him, hoping he was not dissapointed at the spread before them, but her gaze only met disbelief . He pulled her back into his arms kissed her lovingly and whispered "How was I so lucky to ever have you in my life, let alone as my wife?" The only reply that she could tell him, was exactly how she felt, "I guess you could say we were both lucky".
They sat and ate the cake slowly while the movie played, they watched each other more than the movie. When the credits started to run, she laid her hand on his chest pushing him onto his back on the blanket, sliding her leg over his and sitting comfortably on his lap. She let her hair fall over her shoulders shadowing her face. She lowered her head slowly to his ear and told him "Not one day goes by that I am not thankful you asked me to marry you. I don't show you all the time, but I love you more than I ever thought possible. I love you" At the last sound escaped her lips she kissed his ear. Kissed his cheeked and then, kissed his mouth. She hoped that everything she felt from the tip of her toes to her lips was being conveyed through her kiss. Never wanting this moment to pass she continued to press her lips to his.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Showdown
The blank page
Stared me down
My knuckle white fingers
Gripped the blood-thirsty pen
Slowly
Ever so slowly
The pen draws near
Teeth barred
Ready for the fight
The paper took its stance
Sweat beading its forehead
It was scared
Blood dripped
Off the tip of my pen
Scarring the paper
Forever
It was down
I stood
In triumph
The paper
Lowered its head
Wandered off
In shame
*This was a poem I wrote quite awhile ago, and although not romantic at all, I thought that I would post it.
Stared me down
My knuckle white fingers
Gripped the blood-thirsty pen
Slowly
Ever so slowly
The pen draws near
Teeth barred
Ready for the fight
The paper took its stance
Sweat beading its forehead
It was scared
Blood dripped
Off the tip of my pen
Scarring the paper
Forever
It was down
I stood
In triumph
The paper
Lowered its head
Wandered off
In shame
*This was a poem I wrote quite awhile ago, and although not romantic at all, I thought that I would post it.
Friday, July 20, 2007
Together
After a hard day of work, she opens the door, throws her black high heels off and hangs her keys on the hook. Her husband greats her with open arms. He asks, sincerely, what he can do as he takes her hair down and runs his fingers through it. Her only response that she can process escapes her mouth without much thought, "Hold me".
He wraps his arms around her holding her close, so close that her feet lift off the floor. Tears escape her eyes, streaming down her cheek. Holding him close trying to become part of him, letting her troubles fall on his accepting shoulders.
His hands on her neck, rubbing his thumb on her cheek lifting her head to look at him. Looking into her eyes and through her tears. He leans forward and whispers so close to her face that she can feel his breath on her lips. "I love you, and we can make it through this, together. I am with you and will be, always!"
They kiss, so tenderly, so passionately that the rest of the room, the world, disappears.
He wraps his arms around her holding her close, so close that her feet lift off the floor. Tears escape her eyes, streaming down her cheek. Holding him close trying to become part of him, letting her troubles fall on his accepting shoulders.
His hands on her neck, rubbing his thumb on her cheek lifting her head to look at him. Looking into her eyes and through her tears. He leans forward and whispers so close to her face that she can feel his breath on her lips. "I love you, and we can make it through this, together. I am with you and will be, always!"
They kiss, so tenderly, so passionately that the rest of the room, the world, disappears.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Swept Away
The knock on the door startles her awake. Stepping slowly she opens the door apprehensively to see him, standing in the pool of light, his face in shadow. Attempting to take in the fact that he was actually there, to see her she opens her mouth but her mind is blank, what does she say? What can she say? She has dreamt of this moment numerous times but never thought it would truly happen. He steps forward, with no hesitation wrapping his arms around her waist holding her in his embrace. Pressing his hand to her face he pauses for a second, not saying a word, but portraying masses with his watery blue eyes. Leaning downward his nose brushes hers compressing his lips to her suppressing any words that might escape them.
No words, no explanation, only need, passion and desire.
No words, no explanation, only need, passion and desire.
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
I Am
My last thought of you, have I thought,
My last heartache over my loss, have I ached,
My last tear for you, have I shed,
My first thought of my life, have I thought,
My first step on my own, have I stepped,
My first smile, have I smiled,
I am without you,
I am on my own,
I am HAPPY!
My last heartache over my loss, have I ached,
My last tear for you, have I shed,
My first thought of my life, have I thought,
My first step on my own, have I stepped,
My first smile, have I smiled,
I am without you,
I am on my own,
I am HAPPY!
Senses
The smell of cologne tickled her nose, closing her eyes, breathing deeply to inhale the sent, pressing her face to his chest, hands spreading to feel the curves of his arms, his chest, his face. Pressing her lips to the cloth of his shirt. Desire consuming her touch. Another deep breath of his sent and she opens her eyes, the pillow is all she sees.
Romantic & Hopeless
So, I am 28, divorced, and a hopeless romantic at heart. I can't help thinking that true love exists and that it is out there. So because my dating life is more than lacking I escape by movies, books, and writing. The latter of these I have not done for quite some time and have decided to take a stab at it again and just use it for a romantic outlet.
I post here not for the hope of others reading, but more for myself, and for the access to this at any computer at any time.
So here it is, my romantic & hopeless rantings and writings...
I post here not for the hope of others reading, but more for myself, and for the access to this at any computer at any time.
So here it is, my romantic & hopeless rantings and writings...
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