Memorial Day

Can I just say how much I love my TIVO?!?! Seriously the best invention ever made. Here I sit on a Monday waiting for my laundry to finish, cleaning my room and bathroom and watching the edited version of Underworld: Evolution. For some reason I am more productive at whatever I'm doing with a good action flick on. I clean more, do more laundry, as well as even sew faster (which I should be finishing the last purse for my friend Julia).
Today is Memorial Day and I met my family at the cemetery to place flowers on my Grandparents grave. I look forward to this day all year. I get to set aside to remember my Grandparents that I love and miss so much! Whenever I remember my Grandpa my heart aches to see him once again. He was truly a wonderful man that I have never heard an ill word spoken about. He was loving and generous and genuine. I would be happy if I was 1/4 of what he was.
I visited with my Uncle and his wife and daughter, with her new baby (so cute!!) I get to see them often, as they are theatre people like I am, and are always up for a play. Its so fun to see things with them, and I am hoping to get the chance again shortly.
I love days like today that are just laid back and I can do what I need to so I can feel sane again and ready for the week ahead. I also love and need my alone time, which I am able to get on these days. I'm so excited for my family BBQ tonight, nothing like gathering together as a family around an open flame roasting hot dogs and laughing together!
I guess I should get back to the laundry and cleaning that I still have. I hope everyone is having a good Memorial Day.

Pardon My Venting

I'm not really one to vent on my blog, however, I do this often in real life and it usually makes me feel a little better.
I'm feeling a lot of things today and am overall feeling... well... like I need to vent. So here goes....
I'm a people pleaser, I know this, and I've tried to keep it under control. However when I find myself lumped into a blog and am invited to no longer read it, I'm hurt. I feel like I have done something wrong, when this isn't the case, and it bothers me that someone, maybe even someone that I don't even know doesn't like me. I hate it when people don't like me, especially when they haven't even given me a chance. Its not very nice, and I don't appreciate it.
I keep trying to get myself to go to the gym, and once I'm there and running on the treadmill with P!nk blaring in my ears from my iPod I enjoy it. I'm one that loves my "me time" and I like how I feel. So why is it that I have such a hard time going??? I wake up late, stay up late, and have plans at night. I need to get my sorry butt out of bed and go so I don't hate the way I look when I see myself in the mirror.
I also want to do something with my hair, its bugging me! I swear I look the same no matter what I do with it, cut wise. I try to change the cut, and three days later looks like the same exact thing! UGH! I hate it!
One of my best friends at work just gave her notice, and I'm so sad about it, but so happy for her! She gets to stay home with her kids. I will miss her dearly!!! We talk fabric and patterns and go to lunch, when I can.
I think a good action flick, running and a girls night out may be in order!

Update as Promised!

Okay, so where to start. I know its been a long time, but I am thankful to say that my grades paid off for all the studying that went into this semester. One more down... a few more to go. :)
I love my school and am so grateful to be able to attend and meet the people and have professors that care if you understand what they are teaching you. Many times I've had a professor stop a lecture and say I look confused. (which I guess I do a lot... maybe I should work on that. LOL)
Anyways, so far its been a great summer. I purchased a Lagoon season passport with my brother and his family. I've been to three midnight showings of movies, and going to another one tomorrow night. (I will try to write some reviews if anyone is interested)
Things in my personal life... well... hmmm... that seems to never change. I keep myself busy and bury myself in my hobbies and interests to keep my mind of the things that I am not doing. Still no dating, and its actually gotten to the point where I don't feel sad about it. Its been so long that I just can't see it happening, and strangely enough, it doesn't make me sad.
I'm doing so much to be the woman that I want to be that the being dependent on someone else and how that person feels about me is becoming less and less important to how I define myself and my social status. People still ask me why I'm not married, or why I'm not dating, and really I have no answer, other than to shrug my shoulders. I'm pursuing my life long goal and getting closer and closer as the months progress, and I just get excited. I'm trying to be a better friend to those around me. I'm trying to work on being happy as much as possible. I'm trying to be a better aunt, sister, sister-in-law, and daughter.
I'm content with where I am, but not content to stay as I am. I am looking forward to the things that are sure to come my way that will stretch the way that I see myself, and the capabilities that I feel I am lacking.

Update Coming...

I'm sorry for anyone that might actually read this... but I promise to update shortly!