Following Kellee

Okay, so I was just curious and checking out what my friends have blogged lately and I came across Kellee's and started taking some of the same quizzes... sadly the "How Hot are Your Kisses?" one turned out the same as hers.
Anyhow I wasn't going to post any but then I saw this one on the side and HAD to take it... :)

You Don't Need a Man, but You Want One!

You like having a guy in your life, and overall, you prefer not to be single. You won't go out with a guy out of desperation.. you rather be alone. However, when you're single, you do tend to obsess a little over dating. Because no matter how good your single life is, it's better with a great guy around.

Do You Need a Man?

This was so true to me that I just had to put it on here.
Thanks to all my friends for doing neat things on their blogs that I can look at and get ideas from.

Thanksgiving

So today is Thanksgiving and I have been thinking the last few days about a post with just the things I am thankful for on this day would be a good idea.
We had a wonderful Thanksgiving dinner at my parents house with all of my immediate family (21 of us).
I am thankful that we are all as close as we are.
I am thankful that I have my parents as such great examples of giving people.
I am thankful for my belief's and the knowledge I have that I am a daughter of God.
I am truly grateful for all that I have in my life and the things I have in my future.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!
Hope it was as good as mine. :)

5 Years

November 21, 2002.....
The date that my divorce was finalized...
This day is a day of reflection. I have tried to not look at this as a sad day, because there are so many things that I am happy about now, that I did not have then.
I have my family, and have found out how wonderful they can be when you need someone to lean on.
I have found that I have the strength to continue when I have thought there is no way to go any further.
I have started to pursue my dreams,
I found happiness without relying on anyone to make the hard decisions for me.
Through these past 5 years, and even before then I have been through a lot of heartache, a lot of trials and a lot of dispair. However, no matter how I look at the things behind me, the things ahead of me, and the place and person I am now... I would do it again in a heart beat. I have a strong belief that things happen for a reason, and I needed those things in my life at that time. My ex husband was not a horrible person, we both made bad choices and regretting having to leave the relationship, but both realized we were happier when we were apart. We were only meant to be in each others life's for a short time. I was blessed to have him around when I was, and I hope, I hope that he feels that way about me.
I hold no hard feelings for my ex, or how the situation turned out.
This day is not sad, not exactly, for me... however it is a day of reflection for me and to take stock in where I have been, and where I am going.
What a wonderful time for this day to fall, Thanksgiving is just around the corner!

Alone Time

Okay, so I want to write something, but the short story I had in mind isn't working out, I'm still tweaking it, but will put it on when I like it... or until I just can't fix it anymore... Until then, you may get some ramblings.
Anyone who is close to me knows that I need some time to myself. Alone time. I don't know why exactly I need this, and it is very clear to everyone around me when in fact it has come time to need this. I tend to get ornery and mean.
Alone time for me consists of the little things I like to do. Take baths, listen to classical music or instrumental music, read a book, watch a movie or tv, take a bath, sew, or do a craft. I don't know why I am fine after I have this time. I work through problems, I realize that my life is not that hard. Sometimes I realize that the only reason I am in the same place I have been in the last few years is because of the lack of work on my part. No one is to blame but myself.
However, I have a long time plan in motion and I just have to keep that in mind. I have to realize and tell myself that everything in good time. Which brings me to another thing, patience.... This is something I have struggled with my entire life! Everytime I think I've got a handle on it, thats when I hit a wall and want everything NOW! Not tomorrow or in a year or even in five years... I want it NOW!
Anywho... I'm starting to ramble. I started this just because I have had to have alone time the last few nights, and I have had a hard few days for personal reasons, but am starting to feel better. :) Thank goodness!!!

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100 Things

Okay, so Julia's sister did this 100 things about me, I thought it would be easy, after all my family always tells me "Its all about me" saying thats my frame of mind. However, it was more difficult than I thought... So here goes:
1. I am the youngest of four children in my family.
2. I don't think I am too spoiled.
3. My siblings think that I am.
4. I love shoes.
5. I love movies.
6. I like to laugh at movies or tv.. and loud. (its fun, give it a try)
7. I like crime television shows.
8. I love live theatre.
9. I like to eat sushi.
10. During the summer I paint my toenails and give myself pedicures regularly.
11. I sew quilts.
12. I am becoming my mother.
13. I am a lot like my father.
14. I am very close to my family, together, and individually.
15. I am proud to say that I am the daughter of Jack & Sherrie.
16. I enjoy giving gifts to my friends.
17. I love being an aunt.
18. I have incredible nieces and nephews.
19. My parents are amazing people, and always looking to help those around them.
20. I'm starting to enjoy attending college.
21. I like the classic red roses.
22. I quote movies, and love it!
23. I like going out to eat with my siblings.
24. My family give me great strength.
25. I have a hard time getting comfortable enough to fall asleep.
26. I love hot baths.
27. I own about 10 pairs of black shoes.
28. I need more black shoes.
29. I am a romantic at heart.
30. I daydream.
31. I'm addicted to diet soda (diet coke & diet dr. pepper are my favorites).
32. I snack when I'm watching t.v., and not because I'm hungry.
33. I'm emotional, but attempt to hide it.
34. I am afraid.
35. I am anxious to be a nurse.
36. I hope and try to be a good friend.
37. I love listening to my friends life stories.
38. I have GREAT friends!!
39. I'm not a very social person, but am working on it.
40. I like to keep myself busy.
41. I tend to have multiple projects going at once.
42. I think its a great quality to be able to laugh when you are alone.
43. I sing in the car.
44. If I am listening to a musical... I tend to act in my car as well.
45. I do not hide from my mistakes, I try to learn from them and move on.
46. I am far far far from perfect.
47. I have mood swings.
48. I love having a Tivo, and it was a great christmas present from my parents.
49. When I'm nervous I bite the inside of my bottom lip.
50. I always grab three papertowels in the restroom after washing my hands.
51. I dance along with certain movies.
52. I love my family traditions, even the stupid ones. :)
53. I always wanted to learn how to paint.
54. I have never rode a horse.
55. I enjoy fly-fishing with my brothers.
56. My brothers give me a hard time, and I actually enjoy it (for the most part).
57. I've been to NYC twice, and would love to go again!
58. I'm secretly scared to travel, but love it at the same time.
59. I'm always afraid I smell.
60. Green is my favorite color, red is a close running second.
61. I have a tendancy to act like the Wicked Witch.
62. I like to fabric shop with my Mom & Sister, but 2 hours is about my limit.
63. I like to watch movies over and over again.
64. I eat out... a lot!
65. I wish that I could write a great story.
66. Sometimes right after I put on my makeup, I think I look GREAT!
67. I need to drink more water.
68. I wish I would take more pictures of my friends and family.
69. I like black & white photos.
70. I wish I was a better photographer.
71. I like watching my brother Scott cook.
72. I like watching my sister Michelle do her crafts, she is amazing with them!
73. I like watching movies and going to musicals with my brother Russell.
74. I love making a fool of myself with my family!!!
75. I laugh and cry while reading books.
76. Even if I have seen the movie a hundred times, I still laugh and cry like it is the first.
77. I need alone time, every now and then, to keep me somewhat sane.
78. I have found that all of my family members need this time as well, I guess its a family thing.
79. My Dad and I believe that we are blenders, we go unnoticed, such as in Princess Diaries when she says "I got sat on again" (we say this to each other frequently).
80. When I date someone my parents ask his age, then "whats his bag of hair" (from Fever Pitch).
81. I like to make my friends smile.
82. I think people have more worth than they think, and need to give themselves credit more often.
83. Sadly, I think I am among them.
84. I have been through a lot in my near 29 years.
85. I have few regrets, but know I learned from them, so I'm alright with how my life has turned out, in spite of some bad choices.
86. I'm a good employee and get little credit for the work I do.
87. I wish that I could write incredible, yet simple poetry, even if it was just for me.
88. I loved the scene in Game Plan when Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson sang Elvis Presley.
89. I'm a sucker for a guy on a motorcycle.
90. I love guys with accents, English, Irish & Scottish are probably my favorites.
91. I'm excited for Christmas, and some of the gifts I have to give this year.
92. I know I could call any one of my family members with a problem at any given moment and they would be right there for me.
93. I go shopping on Black Friday (day after Thanksgiving) with my family every year and love it, even if I don't buy anything.
94. I have a black thumb, but somehow have this amazing live plant in my office that is doing great!
95. I need to work on not procrastinating house work... It doesn't go away no matter how long I wait.
96. I have a pair of green high heels that I bought specifically to wear to Wicked the musical in NY.
97. My last trip to NY was a short 48 hours.
98. I am planning on a trip to Europe with my best friend Felicity after we both graduate college. (I'm so excited!!!)
99. My first car was a '78 Dodge Colt that was green that looked JUST like Kermit the frog, so we called him Kermit.
100. I want to do a Waltz at my wedding with my new husband.
There! I'm done. Kellee finished before me, but I still finished! YAY!

Nothing to Say

So what do you say when you want to be heard, but yet have nothing to say?!

I have the urge to be heard, to be seen...
I feel... but yet have nothing to feel...
I'm not depressed... yet not happy...

I don't like to complain... I don't like to gripe...
I don't like to admit I need anything...

I am independant...I like to rely on myself...
but sometimes... sometimes like tonight...

I want for companionship...
I want that someone who could feel the question...
without my asking...