I feel like screaming tonight... here I sit, in my pajamas, ready to go to sleep, I have even taken an ambien to see if that could get me to go to bed... yet, here I sit, wide awake... waiting... waiting...
I don't know what it is, sometimes my body would love to sleep for hours and hours, I don't feel like I can get enough sleep... but for the most part, it's this situation. The begging for sleep to come, and it never does. If I'm lucky I will be able to get to sleep in an hour or so... after this ambien, I'm really hoping so. I don't take ambien lightly. I have actually been trying other things, at home remedies if you will... sleepy time tea, hot baths, exercise, stuff like that. But these up cycles, where I just can't seem to want to sleep, my body wants to stay awake are SO frustrating to me. I wouldn't mind as much if I didn't have obligation to attend to first thing in the morning. I'm pretty sure I have blogged about this frustration before, but I was sitting here and wanting to scream and yell... and thought why not put it on my blog? Scream there? lol So here it is... Sleep evades me, quite often, and I'm not sure why my body fights it as much as it does... but I am determined to win this war, even if I lose a few battles.
