Hello Blog... I've missed you!

Wow! That semester was... well... HARD!
I worked full time while going to school full time and no one really explains to you that not only is nursing text books hard to memorize and the tests are confusing and there are like 3 out of 4 right answers but you have to pick the MOST right, the paperwork is crazy! I had no idea I would have to do papers every two weeks that would take approx. 6-8 hours and have a night to do it. Anyways... I survived, and I pulled out a 3.2 for the semester! Now... only 2 more years!
But hey, it's summer! Time to celebrate!
So what have I done to celebrate?? Sew!!!! Oh, and fabric shopping! I've sewn two purses, so far and bought way more fabric than I should have. Oh, and I also signed up and took one knitting class with my friend Juls. I know, I sound like an eighty year old grandma and I'm only 31! However, I heard that knitting is very relaxing and I need to find something to do during the crazy semesters to keep my mind somewhat sane, so I'm going to be trying a lot of things this summer. Knitting, meditation, tai chi, and get back into yoga.
I forgot to take pictures of the purses I've sewn since school has been out prior to giving them to the people I sewed them for, but I will try to remember to post the summer projects that I finish.
Also I'm trying to spend time with my family and friends. I really feel like I've lost touch with a lot of people during this last semester. On the first day of classes we had an 8 hour nursing program orientation and one of my professor said that nursing school was like entering a convent... How true that feels! I know it will be worth it, and I will keep pushing through the next semesters, but for right now, I'm enjoying summer break!!!

AHHHHHHH!!!!!

Okay, when I started the process of going back to school and applying to the nursing program everyone said it was hard. I was worried, I'll admit it, but at the same time, I felt ready. But how is it that when others tell you something will be hard you never realize HOW hard until you are doing it yourself.
It just seems like every day blends together, work, school, school, work. 12 hour days and then homework and studying. Then I sit and I think, is this what I want? Is this really the work I want to do? Is this work really going to pay off in the end?
And then.... THEN...
I watch a show, a show like Grey's Anatomy, or Private Practice, or Mercy and then I remember. I remember why I started this. I remember that there is a passion inside that longs to be in a hospital with patients.
Tonight on Private Practice they showed the NICU, where I want to work. It always lifts me and can get me through the next round of tests, prep paperwork, or case studies.
Then on Mercy a couple weeks ago the nurse, Veronica, was going through a personal hardship and her dad sat down with her and told her that he understood that she was struggling, but that he knew that she would make it through it, because she always did. She was his girl. I cried instantly as the memory of my own Dad rushed at me. Him telling me that exact thing, that I was his girl, and that I would make it through. I'm not a person that is very open with my feelings, I don't tell my family how much they mean to me. My Dad is a strength to me that he will never fully be able to understand.
I will make it through school, I can make it through the long days of full time work and full time nursing school because I am stronger than I think I am. Faith in every footstep, strength in every day.

Sick...

So here I sit in my room thinking of all the things I should be doing, and all I can do is sit on my bed and wipe my nose. I hate being sick! Especially on the weekends, and when I know that when Monday comes it will be non stop going to work and school.
The days seem so long lately. I usually have 12 hour days with full time work and school. I know it will pay off and I'm trying not to complain, but really, it will be nice when it's over.
I've been thinking a lot lately about different things, random things. I've watched a few chick flicks lately and near the end I always think why do we watch these movies? You know the end, they are predictable, but they still give me that giddy happy smiley feelings. I know the couple is perfect for each other and that they will end up together, and it makes me happy. However, I know that this is far removed from reality, but aren't movies there for an escape of reality? Well for me they are. Sometimes the fairy tale is a great escape from the reality that crashes into me each and every morning.
Anyways, this post seems more of a rant while I sit at home sick rather than a purposeful post. So I will end it and study and sleep... at some point sleep will come.

Hello 2010

So I have been looking at blogs the last few days and I can't help to notice that everyone is excited and happy to say goodbye to 2009. While I'm excited to move on with my life and start the new chapter of nursing school, I didn't hate 2009.
I had some hard moments and had to face a lot of personal issues I didn't know I had, but overall it was an alright year. I made some major growth that only I can truly be aware of, but it makes me happy. It was hard to face things I didn't like about myself, and harder to change some things, but it's been worth it.
I digress... While I didn't hate 2009 I'm very excited for 2010. School starts next week and while I will be pulling 12 hour days every day with full time work and full time school I know it will pay off.
I looked back at the post I made this time last year and I said I had no resolutions and no high hopes in change. I've never been one for resolutions but this year I find myself making mental notes of goals I want to make for the year ahead.
I want to be more approachable. I'm kind of a shy person and I've come to realize that it comes across not as me being shy, but me being overly confident or rude. I'm going to work on that.
I want to work on my organization. While I am organized, it only appears that way to me. I want to be able to have others see that I'm organized and run my life orderly, and not just haphazardly and crazy.
I want to make time for a social life. I didn't really do this that well last semester and I fear that this semester will just be worse. However, I want to try to make time for that. Everyone needs a social life.
Date. One word... but so hard for me to do. Like I said I've been pretty busy so I don't have a lot of time. But I miss dating, having fun, talking to someone and finding out about them. First dates aren't the best, I refer to them as the "job interview date", but it's been awhile and I would like to get at least one in this year.
So there you go. My first shot at resolutions... Bring it on 2010!!!

Wishing

So here I sit at work hoping that the nauseated feeling I have goes away because I am just too busy to get sick! I have finals coming up and then straight into the busy holiday week. Oh! I forgot about the homework I have been assigned over the break as well. So needless to say I don't need to get sick right now.
On to the reason of this post. I'm sitting at my desk and trying to distract myself for a few moments then back to work. So how to I distract myself? I go to a few of my favorite websites! (of course) So I went to my favorite one www.modabakeshop.com and now all I want to do is go home and sew a quilt. I've also recently been getting a bug to learn how to knit. Someday after school I will take a class.
I wish I could just take a weekend and sew and get caught up with some projects that have been put on hold. There is nothing like sticking in a movie and sewing to relax you and bring you back to center.
Hopefully in the mess of all the holidays I will get a day or two to do just this!

Long Time... I know!

Okay, so I keep meaning to update here, but I always think... no one reads this. But here I sit in the cafeteria of school looking out at the snow covering the construction going on. I miss the campus how it was. I know it will be better, but I just wish it was done.
Anyways... Update on me. I was suppose to get a letter in the mail the day before Thanksgiving to tell me if I was accepted into the nursing program I had applied to. Well the night before, I had a dream that it got lost in the mail and I had to go in and ask if I was accepted on the following Monday. Day after day I sat at the window trying to concentrate on the homework that I had watching the mailbox. I get the mail in between 4-6 PM! And to no avail the letter did in fact get lost in the mail (still haven't received it) and I had to go ask on Monday if I was accepted... And I WAS!
I got into the nursing program in the school I wanted, my #1 choice!! I was so excited to hear.
So now just to pass the current classes and keep trying to work full time, and nursing school full time. The schedule isn't the best, and I will pretty much have no social life... but it's only 2 and a half years! Then... I get to work in my dream job! I really am so excited.
I have actually been so blessed with all my friends and the things going on in my life. I'm also writing a fictional short story that seems to be getting some pretty good reviews which has been a lot of fun. I have also been able to hang out with my friends, granted not nearly as much as I would like, but it's something.
Finals are the end of this week into next week so I will be buried in my textbooks until then, but then... the Holidays! I love Christmas, and even though I spend New Year's Eve alone (by choice) I love it! I sit down watch an action movie (nothing to do with romance) and work on a puzzle. I still have the one I worked on last year which I'm so excited to hopefully finish. Some much needed alone relaxation time.
It's been a good few months!

Funny!

Okay, so when something funny happens I automatically think, "I'm going to blog about this!" But inevitably it comes and goes, and the post just doesn't happen. However... Friday night I went to the movies and realized I HAD to post about the experience.
So my sister text me and said that they were going to the $1 movie to see Wolverine: X-men Origins and was wondering if I wanted to join them. I didn't hesitate and said I would go!
So I left work a little early and headed straight to the theatre. They had previously bought my ticket and I entered and realized that other than a couple in the back the theatre was completely empty. Which is so nice by the way.
So the movie starts and its probably 30 or so minutes into the movie, and I hear this older woman yell "I can't see a darn thing!" "Can you see anything?!" Then I turn my head and they are right at our row. They proceed to move down the seats, passing ALL the empty seats making their way to us. They then start touching my brother-in-law saying "OH is someone there?" My brother-in-law informs them that there is, and they move down, doing the same thing to my sister, then down to me. She then tries to sit on me still, until I say "Yes, I'm here, the seat isn't empty" She responds surprised "OH dear! I'm so sorry" She then decides that she doesn't want to sit on that row, and slowly makes her way down the rest of the row (that was in fact empty) all the while talking to her friend down the aisle saying that she doesn't know where to sit, and asking where she wanted to go. They finally made there way to the row in front of us on the end that they first started on.
I couldn't stop laughing! Especially when they were finally seated my brother-in-law leaned over to my sister and said "Hey its you and your sister in 60 years"
Oh, and then after watching for about 45 minutes they decided they didn't like Wolverine and got up loudly and walked out. Seriously funny!!!